Lol I see what your saying but your not making sense to what the situation is . He’s not a bad person . He means well . He just has a hard time showing it that’s all ..
You may not be there yet, but you’re closer than you were yesterday.
Thank you Dr. Phil
I may not be a genius but I try being smart enough just to get me through the days .
Because I believe in the better of him and that things could get better . I’m just fragile and don’t like being hurt . .Therefore SMD ! There’s nothing wrong with hope . Your on the outside looking in ,
How low you feel when the only person you actually care for seemingly hates you for no apparent fucking reason and sees no wrong in their doings and really believes that everything is your fault . Then you end up once again apologizing just to keep them around but still feeling like shit on the inside . And this ladies & gentleman is the reason why I am forever stupid and dying on the inside because I really want this one person . But he will never ever I don’t think see that or believe how much, let alone change for the better of our relationship . Call me stupid . . but hey . I wouldn’t dare want to see him with someone else . Because then . . then I would feel like it is my fault . Even if it isn’t . Every time I come home on the train , I hesitate on whether or not to get off at his stop and swallow whatever humiliation I may face , and just go home instead . I really think I’d rather die than for us not to speak or be together . But I also don’t want to be hurt by the person that supposedly loves me . I refuse to be tossed to the side , and laughed at , and talked about , and forgotten for no reason as a cover up of both of us being hurt all because of stubborn attitudes and misunderstandings . Like am I making sense here ? If two people love each other what the fuck is the ” right way ” of handling stuff like this . Do you stay waiting for things to get better and say nothing if you feel a certain way about things while hurting on the inside ? Or do you leave and still hurt while the other person does nothing to fight for you ? I really just can’t deal . I cannot deal with anything . Like how hard is it for two people to say ” Hey fuck whatever is wrong can we just be happy together for each other and not worry about the little things and focus on what’s right and going good ” HOW FUCKING HARD IS IT TO BLOCK OUT ALL PETTY IRRELEVANT BULLSHIT !? If I don’t have him and we never get it together I will be single for the rest of my life and die that way . The End .
im still exhausted from beating all the other sperms